kirkweed

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 14:17:14 GMT

does anyone read these things. they are kinda a waist of time. oh well here goes.

Nickname(s): kirkweed or the weed (sounds a bit sketchy)

Initials: kpv

How old do you look?: i guess 17

How old do you act?: either 2, 16, or 45

Glasses/Contacts: glasses now

Braces: never

What makes you happy?: hiking/backpacking, track/XC, swim team, music, big mountains, elizabeth being happy

What makes you sad?: life, elizabeth being sad

!!Firsts!!

Best friend: Eric

Real boyfriend: well ive never had a boyfriend

Real memory of something: climbing the Timp when i was 4

Teacher: oh i dont remember

Date: oh i dont know,

Kiss: some girl under the sunday school table when i was like 4

Screen name: i think ive always had kirkvanacore

Self-purchased album: i think it was a creed cd, but i dont know because i used to always just use my sisters cds

Pets: thumper (my bunny)

Piercing: my nipples

Enemy: gardner

Detention: i got 2 from luis because i didnt cover my book haha

Heartbreak: when thumper left me

Time breaking a bone: never

Sleepover: probably steve v, matt, and steve m

Hangover: never

!!Social Life!!: none

Best/really good girl friend(s): RCCC(if their is one left) girls

Best/really good guy friend(s): RCCC guys and d group guys

Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Elizabeth

Hobbies: hiking/backpaicking, climbing mountains, playing the guitar, running

Are you the center of attention or the wallflower?: wallflower

Would you rather be with friends or on a date?: i dont know

Best hangout: anywhere where the friends are works for me

!!Who!!

Have you known the longest?: andrew

Do you argue the most with?: andrew

Do you always get along with?: oh the people i know the least

Is most trustworthy?: betsy

Makes you laugh the most?: betsy

Is the most interesting to talk to?: betsy, swim team kids, matt

Has been there through the hard times?: betsy

Has the coolest parents?: laura and dana

Is the most blunt?: mmm dani

Is the smartest?: sennn dawg

Is best mannered?: betsy downing that pasta

Is best dressed?: me

Is most talkative?: i dont know

Is most innocent?:

!!Last!!

Car ride: comming back from sking

Movie seen: the end of friday night lights

Swear word: haha i dont know

Beverage consumed: tea

Person you called: mr vermouth

TV show watched: oh i dont know

Shower: lats week

Shoes worn: sandals (tong style)

Item bought: coffee

Annoyance: i dont know

Web page visited: hotmail

Movie you rented: girl interrupted

CD you listened to: taking back sunday mix from betsy

CD you bought: ummm i dont remeber

Person you were thinking of: andrew because of this survey

!!Now!!

What are you wearing?: tie dye

What song are you listening to?: timberwolves

What's the weather like?: snow

Current obsession?: mountaineering (thats just because i really want to climb some mouatians in this snow)

Current addiction?: well i need to get back into my running addiction

Talking to?: myslef (is that weird)

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 01:08:25 GMT

i so freaking screwed up. today was such a good day; i got to hang out with the best girl ever all day long. but now when i am alone i suddenly feel horrible. but what the heck, i was so happy before. am i bipolar? i just hate this. i just hate being alone sometimes. maybe im just said cause we lost our meet or because the season ended. i dont know. i just suck at this life thing.

this feel so bad

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 05:54:26 GMT

10 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME

1. I like to hike
2. I like to run
3. I like the swim team
4. I'm competitive
5. I'm in love
6. I'm a goon
7. I rarely get things right
8. I love music
9. I
10.

9 PLACES I'VE VISITED

1. The Tetons
2. Uta
3. New York
4. Canada
5. The Wind Rivers
6. Adirondecks
7. I used to live on Long Island
8. Vermont
9. The White Mountains

8 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1. climb some big mountains
2. have a family/children..and stuff..
3. get a job
4. Travel/Hike/Climb
5. do the appilation trail (or at least try it out to see if i like it)
6.
7.
8.

7 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART

1. dont bother, it has already been won
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

6 THINGS I BELIEVE IN

1. well i want to believe in God
2. love (the action)
3. helping others
4.
5.
6.

5 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF

1. screwing up
2.
3.
3.
4.
5.

4 OF MY FAVORITE ITEMS IN MY BEDROOM

1. my bed
2. CD player/CDs
3. my pictures (that hang all over the walls in my room)
4.

3 THINGS I TOUCH EVERY DAY

1. the computer
2. my tooth brush
3. Elizabeth

2 THINGS I AM TRYING NOT TO DO RIGHT NOW

1. screw up
2. be stupid

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW

1. Elizabeth

swim team/life

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 05:41:10 GMT

last home meet, makes me what to cry. i feel like i couldnt ask for anything more from this season: the wins, the fun, the pasta parties, the team unity. i want to cry. Thursday will be the last time i ever swim competitively. its sad, but it such a happy sad. i feel as if i might cry. (i am such an emo.) this is like the billionth time that has happened to me today. i felt like crying when we jumped into the pool and we were hugging because it was our last normal/home meet; i realized how much i would miss it. then at friendlys will maccarthy and i where talking about the four years i have we have had on the team. he said "i feel like crying" and i felt the same way. then as i was talking to everyone on the team 2 freshman told me i was the best captain, i said no way, but when they described me just as i would have described the captains who i looked up to so much and who had really put effort into connecting with me my freshman year, i almost cried. then later on talking to the girl who i love oh so much i almost cried just thinking about how great our relationship is and much i love her.

man if i didnt have self control i would have been so dehydrated

i am such and emo/hippie because I LOVE YOU ALL.

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 04:19:36 GMT

Her father's in his chambers with his
Friends all gathered 'round
They are plotting their enemy's demise
With their last detail done
They await the coming sun
While I am staring in my lover's eyes
Her brothers and her sisters
Are all through for tonight
Pretending that they've just
Come into power
But she far most of all, knows that they
Can only fall
In my darkest hour

He said I’m gonna buy this place and burn it down
I’m gonna put it six feet underground
He said I’m gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls
Oh I’m gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desires
Because I’m gonna buy this place and see it burn
Do back the things it did to you in return

I'm kind of done

Maybe i just need to hike

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 03:17:37 GMT

OK GUYS MY HOUSE TOMORROW AT 5

BRING FOOD AND SECERT SANTA STUFF

OK? OK

TELL EVERYONE

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 23:57:53 GMT

what a long week and its only half over.

yeah so if you guys want to have a christmas party at my house taht would be cool. just give me some ideas for dates. ok?

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 03:03:18 GMT

oh lord why have you forsaken me
my words trickle down to wounds i have not intention to heal

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 22:28:55 GMT

like a bridge over troubled waters....

With winter comes simon and garfunkel

Save the life of my child...

yeah so anyways if anyone wants the RCCC CDs i am willing to burn them for you just post me a message or something and i'll get on it.

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 05:09:29 GMT

I'm sorry

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 03:42:53 GMT

So i wopuld say its about time a ask myself why am i here? oh i dont know i should be out hiking and backpacking. in the whites, the adirondacks, the smokies, the blue ridge, the tetons, yosemite, yellowstone, the widrivers. ahh i need to HIKE. so will you come with me.

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 03:13:11 GMT

why did this weekend end?

well im so glad it came and it all worked out. :)

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 22:12:42 GMT

caught in the rays of the rising sun
on the run from the soldier's gun
shouting out loud from the angry crowd
the mild the wild and the hungry child

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 02:38:51 GMT

so god why did you make me an idiot? why cant i do anything right? why do i do this? why am i complaining?

yeah im done with that.

so the season ended and i dont know what to do. to be honest im not ready to swim. i feel like i didnt finish my xc season. oh just shoot me. why did it end that way?
there i go again. im complaining.

nothing's right, nothing.

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 02:26:36 GMT

fuck you fucking leg

fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 01:26:36 GMT

oh I'm so done with this. why dont you work you dumb legs? this has to be the best time to be injured.

I'm done. i dont want to do this anymore.

I don't know no love songs, and I can't sing the blues any more.
But I can sing this song, and you can sing this song when I'm gone.
-james taylor

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 06:04:24 GMT

ok i admit it im scared out of my mind. whats to come? will i even make it? will i survive till tomorrow? i feel like im falling apart now whats going to happen when all that i have is gone.

oh my god im so lost. i know that im going to scew up and this whole thing will fall down on top of me. i'm so screwed.

i'm so weak i wish i could help you, but i know i can't. you help me but i can't help you. i try but i'm way too weak. whatever i say just falls to the ground as you step on it. "i can't" you say. what can i do? it seems like i can't do a thing. maybe i'm just too weak for this.

home home on the...suburb of westboro

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 04:09:05 GMT

just got becak from wyoming..the tetons and wind rivers are awesome. those are the biggest steepest carziest moutains i have ever seen. and the weather was crazy, too. we had sun rain sleet snow and hale all in an hour once. its not supposed to snow in august. oh but it did like numerous times. :) fun stuff. if only my camara would let me import the pics.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 15:18:39 GMT

Speak out, you got to speak out against the madness
You got to speak your mind,
If you dare.
But don't, no don't no try to get yourself elected.
If you do you had better cut your hair.

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 16:49:47 GMT

Happy Birthday...have a great week

im so glad i got meet and spend lost of time with you you this year

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 13:39:41 GMT

i know you didnt bring me out here to drown
so why am i ten feet under and upside-down

screw you

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 23:35:37 GMT

i dont want to hear it anymore...why are you yelling at me? i was just helping you. why am i putting up with this? umm no i not coming with you this weekend so that you can complain to me about what you decided you were going to do with us and then you can jump down my throught every time i say something. then you can criticize me and tell me that all i do is complain. shut up i am so sick of you.

But now I'm confused
Is this death really you?
And do these dreams have any meaning?

grrr and now i am complaining

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I'll see you Tomorrow

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 23:19:03 GMT

ONE MORE DAY...Tomorrow at about this time i will be driving to see all of them bviers. :) Hopefuly.

I hope they did get caught up in that hurricane.

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 03:53:03 GMT

"absence is to love as wind is to fire: it extinguishes the small but kindles the great"
i cant wait to see you again...

floating

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:32:31 GMT

after a long day of yard work, mowing a huge lawn, breaking a lawn mower, running, biking, and SAT prep i went to good old lake chauncy to swim from the rope swing to the beach (more like float then swim). it was dusk and the sun was setting and as i lay on my back in the middle of chauncy. i must say it was pretty cool, even though i am a guy and i'm just supposed to say "yeah thats cool" it really did did becalm me. the sun and the blue clouds reflected onto the uneven water.